FROSTED

I fail to understand myself

I fail to express myself

I don’t know where im leading myself

I don’t know where am I taking myself

Confused I am about life                                                                

I talk to myself to relieve

I live in a story world

And play all the parts written for me

I keep waiting for the unknown unseen

I don’t know what lies ahead

All I know is I want all

Here I feel like the best

Next I feel like a looser

I fail to relieve myself

I fail to satisfy myself

I don’t know what Iam doing

And I donno where Iam going

It’s sickening to not get what you want

And totally heartbreaking

To live with it everyday

I want when I want what I want is exactly what I want

Completely frosted I became

Frosted I live

Frosted I die

Frost is exactly where it lies

Unexplainable

The theory of life is unexplainable

And life with emotions is totally not acceptable

Cos they arise for good and evil

But this emotion is completely unexplainable

What we want is what we get

But wrong timing is not suitable

At least today it shouldn’t be the day

This loneliness is not suitable

I hit the blockbuster today

But see how I’m busted exactly today

This confusing state of mind is unexplainable

I tell you….. these emotions

Totally not acceptable

No one to take it on with

No one to bring it on now

I lay here in my this state of tense emotion

Creating smoke in an unexplainable situation

This half way down the drink in unacceptable

Senseless warmth is not the taste which is impeccable

Slayed it all

You just slayed it all

Scraped my layers one beneath the other

Where even the echo of my pain

Did not cross your ears

With all my blood rush I kept looking at you

And you turned away as if you had nothing to do

The frequency broke down and so did we

You call me curt, and for you I was ready to give it all

You call me heartless; I am cos you took mine and left me empty

Understanding is a part of the game

If you didn’t see that, I wonder how we lasted

Stoned all this while I smelted only for you

Betrayed and deceived all my life I put my conviction only in you

Is it so grim to fathom me

Or is it you who’s incomprehensible

Interrogating my own self

It’s become so dense to breathe

You took my heart away

And now you blow my mind

How tuff is it to let it go

And just dwell the love with time

So hollow that you can turn my spine

No tears to even get me blind

The Unnoticed Pains

Strong as they believed she stood

Outlined the charm that’d  vanished

Gleams curving through the body

Burning like the blinding gold

Silking her way down

For the eyes that were glued

To witness the intended fall

Dismissed afore they knew

For all that she passed with

In her heart and soul

No one witnessed nor took a clue

Fathomed with her own aura

Explosion’s on the way

She happened no more

Then alive Just as they say..